i am not just a piece of meat to be whacked and tortured - true i enjoy these things - i need an emotional connection with the Dominant, some kind of continuity. i am not just a sub to be ordered around - how to dress, where to be, how to beetc i have a whole range of needs not just those on a checklist

i am a fully rounded human being..... i need a fully rounded relationship in real time not online that includes lifestyle and nilla experiences and enjoyments.... i dont wish to be picked up and dropped at a whim. i give my submission as a gift and i do expect that gift to be cared for.

is this too much to ask?

for now i cant answer that - all i know i am unhappy, as much as i was in nilla.