Hi Mel,
be honest with yourself. You haven't slipped, you have relapsed or you have not even started your quit. You are also not having a hard time with your quit, you are having a hard time with yourself and I am sorry to read that you are feeling this way.
There is no way you can remain "as smoke free as possible." You either are smoke=nicotine free or you aren't. No, wrong, for the first three days you would be smoke free but not yet nicotine free.
You really don't need to worry about relapsing into full blown smoking again if you keep this going. No need to worry as it WILL happen and much sooner than you think.
It seems to me as if you think that quitting really is
"A fate worse than death". It honestly isn't. As an active addict, I have also always been looking for
The easy way out. Have a close look at this, especially #4, 11, 26, 29, 33.
Mel, if you have been reading here you will have seen
Law of addiction. There really is no loophole in it. The way to get over the first day is just to not take even
Just one little puff. You can do it, you have proven to yourself that you can do it already. Don't let this go on and on.
Don't be
scared of Success. There really is nothing to be scared of. Your life without nicotine will be so much better and soon you will ask yourself why it took you so long ...
I won't wish you any luck as you really don't need it but I do wish you all the best on your own, personal, nicotine free
Journey home.
Gitte
425 days and a bit