Like I said this will take some time for i have no knowledge of wrighting skills. But as I was praying and reading and meditating today this direction came to me so here goes.

   God allowed me the privlidge of comming back to Him in 1995 after many years of absence. I got mad a man and blamed God and went back to following satan, and as I have said I believe in here mabe not cant remember,I was not looking to come to Christ in 95 that I knew of when He called my heart on the bridge almost 7 years ago now.

   In 95 I had to be taken care of and carry a note book arround to help remember what I was supposed to do. I had had 2 strokes due to coacan use , my now paster still say man when you first came back you were a mess.

   FAITH is not only a word or definition to me ( and I dont think others are that wright in here ) but it has become a way of life for me. I just believe He can.

   So my life or testamoney as you call it is my wrightings for I live by faith .And the foundation of my faith is Jesus Christ and that He Is.

   When I came back to God in 95 I was a sever mentel case , The doctors had given up on any help that was available.

   For the first year my personal spirit guides kept comming back to me to take posses of my life.Or to convince me to come to them for a better life . On 2 occasions they litterally tried to take my life . They came into my bedroom and tried to smother me to death .

   I did not know how to pray and I still had much anger and resentment stored in my hart . And my mentel state was so I could not remember form one day to the next that I had a salvation experience.

   My paster gave me a key to the church and I would go over unlock the door and walk arround the church sansurary and then walk back out.Time and time again then I started saying well here I am Lord what do I do.

   I was impressed to pray the 51 psalms , over and over again I prayed it , 3 , 4 , 5 and more times a day I would go over and pray the 51 psalms for almost 6 mounts. And little by little I began to talk with the Lord about what was going on in my mind. My pastor told me you have to get the anger out all the hate out even the hidden things and the condemnation from the past life.Many people had died or were walking in very wicked paths because of me and the enflunce that I was able to share with them. ( I tell this so you may understand where I was comming from)

   A friend was very depressed becasue of his life style so he came to me to talk . I gave him a big ( free) fix of good coak to shut him up then sold him 300 dollars worth and got rid of him so he wouldnt bring others that might come arround down . 2 hours later they found him hanging on the cross of a local church here .I was a back slidden christian at the time running from God and teaching all maners of sin to young and old alike.

   Anyway David in his prayer of repentence asked God  " against the and only thee have I sinned and done this evil in thy sight" that struck a cord in my heart.If when I asked God to forgive me and He did THEN all that was done against me real or imagined it was done against God, and He forgave me then I have to forgive others.So I went back , back to 7 when I was moslested and started there for I have hurt many people because of my hate for that man.( He is now on my personal prayer list for salvation ) . For weeks there after otheres came to my mind and I cried out to God to remove the hate and fill it with His Love for them , and Has .

   FAITH is pray ( or talking to God ) out of your heart .Now God had taught me to pray and countinues to teach me and add to it daily. I enjoy spending hours with Him in prayer for others. I dont believe I have asked God for anything for myself now for 6 years , because I dont see ( personally ) any scriptural bases for it. He just takes care of my needs and some of my wants as I seek Him first and His Righteousness.

   At this time I would like to share part of the prayer He gave me some 6 years ago now.

   Mighty Intercessor , my interceding King: Thank you that even now , this very moment, you are interceding on heaven's throne in everlasting love , giving yourself to each of us and to this needy world. through intercession in the Spirit I link myself to you.

   Thankyou , Lord Jesus,. that your throne is a throne of grace. Through your grace lead me deeper and deeper in mighty pervailing prayer.

   Lord, give me eyes to see others and our needy world as your loving eyes see them, Give me a heart that feels the tradgedy of sin, the lostness of mankind, and the bondage with which satan enslaves them, Give me a heart that feels your love for the church and for all of your own, Give me more of your love for the lost, more of your yearning for the worlds harvest, more of your hunger for the advancement of your kingdom.

   O. Lord teach me to pray, fill my heart with your hunger.... my eyes with your tears... my soul with your hatred for sim...my will with your strength to resis the devil in prayer... fill my spitit with the mighty power of your Holy Spirit that I can prevail with you in Holy precvailing and mighty intercession.

   Lord , I give myself to you afresh and anew right now! Take me! Take all of me! Take me and fill me with a re-baptism of your spirit that it may be not me byou you living in me...not my love, but your love pouring through me,,,not my power but your mighty power gripping me and workiong in and throught me. Fill me so that it may be not me praying but :"the spirit interceeding" in might and faith through me according to your Holy will.

   Help me to pray with prayer's holy and might pleas. Help me to bear prayers burdens when you appoint them to me. Help me to wrestle with the spirit's might prayer wrestling : O might intercessor on heavens throne.

   God , I am not worthy to be called a prayer worrior, but help me to press prayer's battles presistently , vicariopuslly, and victoriously.

   Help me to prevail till satan's plans and strategies are defeated..till satan's captives are set free...till the places satan has forcibly occupied are captured for you. Help me to back satan off and force him to retreat from stronghold after stronghold. Help me to press ever forward on my knees, Help me to use the Holy Authority of Your name... the victory of Your cross... and the power of Your Blood.

   O, Lord Jesus , I am totally unworthy, insufficient, and unavle within myself , Yet use me , I pray , for your glory. Let me bring joy to your heart and honor to your name.

   Now. O mighty intercessor, I would " pray without ceasing " for my children.. my family.. and extended family .. to be saved. I pray for divine protection from satanic scheemes and for the ministery of angels to come to the aid of your children. I would pray without ceasing for the church, for the exposure of strongholds that hinders revival and give satan advantage over us. I pray especially for our leaders.. for protection, for directionm, that they be anointed with a double portion of the Holy Ghost to lead us into the whitened harvest. I pray for the workers for encouragenemt and strength as they reach the lost and disciple them and equip them for the harvest.

   I pray for the unsaved and every honest heart, that their eyes be opened and they be turned from darkness to light and from the power of satan to God.

   And, as I untie in unceasing prayer, may the glory of the Lord be risen upon us and his glory be seen unpon us,,, and the Gentiles shall come to thy light... and the kings to the brightness ot thy rising!

   You are able to do immeasurably more than all I could ever ask or imagine. i believe it ! I clame it! Let they kingdome come and your will be done and your victory be wom-through my obedience and unceasing prayer. Be the "amen" to this my longing and my heart's cry.

   Teach me to pray with groanings so that there are earthquakes in hell

   teach me the groaning of the Spirit until angels stand in awe

   teach me Spirit-born intercession that changes history

   teach me the birt panges of the Holy ghost until hell-shaking revivel is born

   Lead me into trabvail that will hold back divine judgment from our nation for a little while longer.

 

             I hope this post isnt to long that it is boring and to much so it doesent bore you I just feel like sharing with you whats on my heart , that has brought me to where my Jesus for me at this time in my life.

    For my life what I am wrighting has allowed me to see God move in many of my friends lives and those I have met find there walk with God or strengthen or renew there walk with God . It is my prayers that this will encourage , uplift , and give someone a desire to go deeper in the Love of Jesus Christ.

                                             In His service                 Errol