Hop Hop Hop...I am a YOP

I love to Hop from finger top to finger top

I hop from left to right and then...

I hop right back again!

Why do I love to Hop Hop Hop?

 

I don't know go ask your Pop!

 

Dr. Suess was a prophet, like Jesus, he spoke in parables too deep so anyone who wasn't atuned and ready to receive the real message, would only hear a amusing or interesting story.

 

"One Fish, Two Fish ,Red Fish, Blue Fish" is ripe with as many Divine elbows-to-the-ribs as any holy scripture for those who have ears to hear the messages. This passage about the Yop for instance....

 

How many of us are JUST like a Yop?

We bounce from opinion and commitments back and forth without knowing why and unable to stop ourselves. Take this dieting thing for example.

 

We KNOW we need to eat healthier, we KNOW what food is good for us, we KNOW how much we should eat and when, but like a spaztic flea, we hop from that fingertop to the fingertop where the candies and icecream and doughnuts are. Then appauled at our behavior we hop back to the healthy attitude fingertop.

Back and forth, back and forth.

Why do we like to hop hop hop?

 

"go ask your Pop"... as the BIG adult part of you. Listen.

Mine tells me because I'm defiant. I don't like rules, restrictions, or being denied my wants. I fought like a tasmanian devil to be able to do what I wanted the whole time I was a kid, thinking that was what being grown up meant... Being able to do whatever I wanted without anyone telling me what I could or couldn't do.

 

But... my grown up self tells me that ISN'T what being grown up is about, being grown up is about guiding, protecting, loving and helping my wee self even after my wee self is inside a grown up body.

 

I actually stood in the family room in the house where I grew up shouting at my parents, "You just wait until kids rule the world!"

I was SO angry. And You know what? I have still been doing it... not to my parents, but to my adult self.

 

So I am going to try to only hop on one fingertip for a while and try listening to my adult self and not be angry, remembering that my adult self loves my wee self and wants only whats good for me.

 

Thank you Dr. Suess.

wow I may break a record on posts for the month in here!

 

Ok... this is the second day in a row I've woken up at 3:30 and not been able to go back to sleep. Of course I went to bed around 9 pm so I did get 6 hours sleep which is ok... but the timing is weird. Not that I don't like it.... it's cool to wake up in the quiet and peace rather than having to listen to the kids growl at each other like rabid weasels on steroids. The temptation to cast a spell on them to be civil at those moments is incredible.

At times like those the whole Karma thing seems non sequitor.

::sigh::

But now it's quiet and peaceful and I have the house to myself!!! YAY!

Yesterday I went NUTS I did more in a day than I have done in YEARS, running to and fro and actually getting somethings DONE instead of starting and pooping out or worse, wishing about it and doing nothing. So yesterday was a good day..... except for the phone call from the doctor.

She told me my kidneys are spilling alot of protien and that means my diabetes is affecting them badly. No wonder my pee smells like bacon.

So I have to cut down on my protien intake. crap.

Visions of kidney transplants and dialysis have been dancing through my head ever since.

I used to babysit the kids of a woman who had kidney failure... it wasn't pretty, watching her deteriorate, face swelling up, skin looking like bleached orange rind. You'd think the kids would have been scared or affected, but the only difference I could see was they behaved even worse to her than they did before. Not pretty at all.

When I was pregnant with Velma I had a similar problem of kidney failure. I had toxemia and my pee turned the color of maple syrup. The doctors had to deliver her almost 3 weeks early. But that was over 16 and a half years ago.

I'm not in any pain...just worried. I'm going to ask Lady Majyk to Reiki my kidneys.

The blood tests also showed my cholestorol, both good and bad are too high, and my thyroid is more hypoactive. She's going to up my thyrhoid meds and see if that helps the cholestorol before she puts me on meds for that. I hate taking pills. The Dr wants to do another blood work up in 6 weeks and get an ekg this week. mirf.

My Blood pressure was 146/94... borderline, and my blood sugar was good! It tested out at 86, she was THRILLED about that.

 

So for now it's eat less, take pills and find some sort of exercise program. Well... that's what I'm here for!

 

 

well it happened... the fit hit the shan yesterday. Velma turned into the teenager I had hoped I would avoid.

She was doing so great!

oysh!

she didn't come home from school, she didn't call, she just went POOF!

If it weren't for Jon who knows where she'd be now. She went to where he works and he called and told us she was alright, and I went to pick her up.

Talk about being madder than a wet cat!

Speaking of cats, that's what started this whole mess.

She has this cat that she will NOT maintain a litter box for and yet she doesn't want it to "go" outside, so the poor cat ends up peeing and pooping wherever and yesterday morning it peed on my canvas LLBean briefcase..... right in front of me!

I declared the cat to be an outdoor cat from now on and Velma went balistic, started bad mouthing everyone and eventually ended up getting slapped.

She stormed off to school threatening to run away.

:::sigh:::

I went to where she was hiding in the Mall and dragged her out to the car and brought her home. She told Jon she was never going to speak to him again, but within a few minutes of returning home from work they were, although I don't know what was said.

She's still surly and nasty and frankly I don't want to hear it.

Other than that I had a pretty good day, talked to Stewart about getting Shirley's store. Not that her store is any big yip, but it's the only metaphysical store in town and she's bugging out.

Talked to Dee Dee about the inventory and possible future of such an endeavor and talked about my dream/vision of building a real life WicHaven in Yuma and the ripple effect. Got home and found a post on the YPN groupsite  about a site called FreeYuma.com which is kind of a spiritual bulletin board that I thought was VERY cool, and took the kids out to dinner....sans Velma (I hadn't found her yet...it was after I knew she was ok and before I picked her up)

I was a good toad eating out and only ate half of what they served and gave the leftovers to Velma to eat for dinner when we got home.

 

Need to call the Dr about getting my thyrhoid meds, take old Lee some lunch at the nursing home, grocery shop and do the school site council meeting today. No rest for the wicked!

 

 

I got nearly everything I intended to do done yesterday. YAY!

I got my thyrhoid meds and am feeling MUCH better.

I think the upped dosage is going to really help too!

I don't feel like I am decomposing  at least ! hehehe

 

Today I am going to attempt to finish what I didn't have time for yesterday and get a ticket to the drum fest thing and look into signing up for a yoga class.

 

I still haven't gotten into a routine as far as excersizing, but I think with the help of the thyrhoid stuff I'll have enough energy to do something.

 

My great grandmother used to say "The the road to hell was paved with good intentions", meaning intending to do something and doing nothing was a glaring red flag to a persons core being. Another platitude was "all talk and no action" was a bad thing

So again I look to my own personal credo..."You make your ideals REAL by your actions" and apply it to my diet and excersize needs and look at what my TRUE ideals are and choose to be a person of character or a putz.

 

lessee...................I think I'll choose the former. hehehe

 

Well, it's Thanksgiving and it's been a lovely day.

For reals!

No fighting, not furniture thrown, no fits, no arguements, just blissful peace.

I even had a nice conversation with my mom on the phone!

:::happy sigh:::

I've been dabbling with excersizing, nothing down pat or regular yet, but I'm playing with it.

 

The new thyrhoid meds have REALLY helped. I feel like I am waking up after being half asleep for years!

I haven't had this much energy in almost 20 years.

 

I'm even toying with the idea of holding regular lunar rituals for the YPN gang to come to if they want.

But to do that I'd have to get out and spruce up my circle, but now I think I might have the strength to do that.

When I get it done I'll post a picture. I REALLY like Lady Majyk's circle, but mine will be a little different.

After that then I'll think more seriously about group rituals.

 

Velma cooked "dinner" tonight, we didn't do turkey (Thank the Goddess, I've eaten 3 turkeys since Mabon) but it was very good and I was a good toad and didn't overeat. YAY me!