"Surrender is a fluid recognition of what is"
You are much stronger than you realize. Knowing that there is help for you, that you are, in fact, surrounded by help, makes you stronger, not weaker.
Surrender is a different concept than imagined weakness. Surrender to life and what it is and how it flows is a kind of strength, just as faith is. Surrender and faith are intertwined.
Think of yourself as floating down a stream, a stream that sometimes becomes a raging river, full of rocks and eddies; suddenly you are in the rapids and must survive. This is the time to go into your internal strength as well as to surrender to the flow. The more you surrender, the stronger you become, for you are then both inviting the universe to be your helper and relying upon the most ingrained and true parts of yourself: your instinct, your inner strength and truth.
Do not cling to a rock and cry out in terror. Do not give up. Instead, come into that state of ultimate awareness of what really is. You are in a dangerous situation, true, but you are equal to it, if you only you will heighten your senses and come down into what actually is.
When you are in a challenging situation, the worst thing you can do is deny the challenges around you. The worst thing you can do is hold onto a plan which was built for another situation or a response to imagined events which are not quite the same as these actual events.
Surrender is really just a fluid recognition of what really is. Instead of trying to control, it is allowing things to be as they are, recognizing them for what they are, and responding from a deep connection and truth, an inner knowing. And then, through this surrender, your heightened awareness will lead you to safety.. If you will allow it, your center of truth will guide you safely through, telling you when to twist and turn, when to dodge a rock, when to dive down deep.
If you will but trust yourself and your connection to that which is deeper and wider, you will be led safely through, to find yourself stronger than ever when you reach the still pool of water on the other side of the rapids. You will then flip over on your back and float for a while, amazed at how you somehow handled what occurred, knowing yourself as strong and connected and whole, even if a bit bruised.. And every time you do this, every time you go deeply into yourself and trust what you find there, you will build more and more faith in your own strength and ability to navigate the waters of life. And after a time, a sort of joy will begin to fill you as you realize that this is life, this is fulfilling life, this plunge into the changing stream.