Well, another day, and another day deeper in debt...isn't that how it goes?  One goes into debt just trying to make money...lol.  Over the weekend, for example, Gary, my wonderful hubby, was talking to the owner of a quaint little bar at the end of our street (its several blocks away) as they were having a car show, one of our interests.  They got discussing T-shirts, and he offered for us to make theirs, as they were not happy with the prices of the larger T-Shirt places, as it really ate into their profits and put the shirts out of the price range of a lot of their patrons.  After all, who wants to pay $27 for a silk screened shirt??  I know I wouldn't.

 

So, since then, I have been slowly but surely working on the shirts, and yesterday we decided to do a 'run' which is what I call it when I am printing shirts.  I expected to get 5 done...maybe 8 if I was lucky, but I actually managed to get 15 done...12 of which were sellable!  We sold them to her for $14 a piece, which left her lots of room for profit, and she was very very pleased and asked for 20 more!  So today I have to cut not one of each stencil...Each shirt requires 2 stencils...one for the front and one for the back, but 2 of each, since I dont want to do 2 seperate runs, and she has ordered white and black t-shirts.  Since this requires both white and black ink, I can't run them on the same stencils, hence the need for 2 sets.

 

After we got the order, we had to go shopping...for more T-shirts!  We have a supply of white t-shirts and some black ones, but we didn't have any in stock of the ones she asked for...Tanks!  You have no idea how hard it is to find Tank Tops!  We tried the local Wally World, and bought out all they had in the colors we needed, then drove to Tri-Cities, and bought out almost all they had too!

 

I was in a lot of pain by the time we got home.  Too much walking and not enough scooters/wheel chairs in stores to help me get around.  On top of it, I started feeling rather sick...nautious and light headed.  Too much heat, maybe?  I can't take it the way I did as a kid, but then as a kid, I never lived in an area where the temp easily exceeds 100 degrees in the summer.  lol.

 

Tested a few minutes ago.  137.  Lowest yet.  Good...and surprised.

 

 

Trying to keep this all together is so hard.  I know I probably sound like a broken record about my diet and all, but I feel like I was given a set of scant instructions...do this, do that, but not how to do this or that, dropped in the middle of a forest and told to find my own way out.

 

Gary is understanding, but the kids think life is as usual.  They don't understand that with the diagnosis, my whole world has changed, and I need their help to get through this, just as much as I need Gary's.  I hate having to ask, ask, ask all the time, and being forgotten when I don't ask.

 

I asked the doc, when I was there on monday some things, but talking to him at times is frustrating, too.  Like those pills he gave me for anxiety.  It doesn't affect my whole life...I am not a nervous nellie by nature.  I just get upset in crowds where I don't know anyone.  I don't like just sitting there being ignored, and I am too shy to make contact and start conversations.  Grocery shopping or other types of shopping don't bother me because its not a social situation.  He would not listen to that though...the doc...and insisted I take the pills, even though I pretty much told him they wouldn't be effective.  I have weird or no reactions to different things.  I know if I took it, it either wouldn't work, or it would work too well, and I would be a zombi, and I don't like that feeling.  I also didn't like what I read about the side effects and needing a docs help/permission if I wanted to go off them because going off them suddenly (he wanted me to try them for at least 2 weeks, and preferably a month) could cause all sorts of other problems!

 

I looked in Dex for information...anything, and the only thing there is, is a clinic at the hospital.  I don't know how that would work.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

  Hi Saleen,

 

 I'm pretty sure I know you from another board we are both on.

I would love to help you out, if there is anything I can do. Seems like we have quite a bit in common.

How long as it been since you were diagnosed?  Learning about this disease is definitely alot like learning how to swim, ride a horse,  anything like that. Its an extended learning experience.

 Alot of people go through stages.. such as.. denial, grief, and finally acceptance at some point. It seems like such a horrible, life altering thing that has happened, and it is.. you have lost part of the function, of an organ in your body. In time though,  it will become second nature for you to control this as much as possible.

Diabetes can be very unpredictable, and that itself makes it so exasperating, especially to the newly diagnosed. You will become accustomed to even the unpredictablility being predictable. Does that make sense?

You will find strengths in yourself that maybe you didnt' even know you had... perseverence, strength, adaptability, just to think of a few. These are some the positive things that can come out of having a life long disease. Another is making some way cool friends.

Right now you might be dealing with the denial and grief stage, and that is perfectly normal. Many diabetics suffer from depression during this time, or at other time periods also. This is alot to deal with, in addition to all that is life.

 

I would love to talk to you gal, if you like. I also posted a note for you on the other group. I can post an email or send it to one of the managers.

 

Hugs

 

Sher

Its me again.    On reading about your slices of bread for breakfast... are you taking insulin to cover for them? Or you on basically just a diet regimine right now?

 

Your jump from 102 to 143 was from the toast. If you would have checked it at 1 or 2 hrs after the toast, you prob. would have been even higher and it started to come down after 4 hrs.

 

Just for example.. in my body.. breads make me go higher than even say.. ice cream.  Everyone is different and eventually you will learn how things affect you.

 

You might want to try switching your breakfast to something like eggs and bacon, maybe only 1/2 piece of toast? Or some fruit or small amount of oatmeal or sugar free yogurt.

 

Just some ideas.

 

Hugs,

 

Sher

Saleen

 

Your body is in a chemical inbalance.  The body needs fuel and that fuel needs to enter the cell to feed your body.  I am going out on a limb here as I want you to follow your doctor but for one if he is saying NO SUGAR at all he is a stupid doctor as all food contains a type of sugar except meat and it only takes longer for it to break down to a form of sugar to the cells.

 

Balance is the key.  The up and down shocking your body is what is making you feel like H.  Asking you to keep your bg at 60 or a little above is seemingly not right for you as an individual.  You can not also exercise if you have no fuel in your body and cells.  You must eat and eat the same in protein, carbs, and fiber plus water everyday at the same times each day.  Even if you can only walk around the house tidying up here and there do it everyday until your body comes into a chemical balance then you can do a little more moving about.

 

You can not skip meals at this stage you are in.  Eat healthy foods even in snacks.  I know it is very hard to do.  It is hard for me.

 

Do you have a Reg. Dietition?  You need carbs and protein at every meal.  The portions vary according to height and activity and age.

 

Are you sleeping?  I mean getting into rem-- stage each night.  That can affect your chemical balance as well.  The body is like a machine and it needs to be fueled.

 

I would try another doctor and ask to see a Reb. Dietition not a nutritionist or the doctor.  They will make out a meal plan that suits your needs.

 

When I go off my routine my chemical balance goes whacko and I feel tired, nausteated, and plain sick like I had the case of really bad flu.  I know how you feel and you can not exercise feeling like you do and exercise even in a small form helps your body use the food as fuel.  You sound like you are being starved into a low bg which is not the way out of the stage you are in.

 

Believe me I know how you feel.  When I get off my routine and meal regime I have some very bad days to follow but I go right back to what I should do and I get better.  I vowed no one or nothing would make be go off my routine and I have stuck to is even on vacation.

 

I am so sorry you are feeling so awful and I know it seems impossible to get out of the hole you are in but you can do it.

 

Call you doctor often and tell him how you feel.

 

Hugs and don't give up the fight

Katy