hi my name is joann and iam type1.......sounds like you are depressed and i have been there......but you have to get up shake yourself off and start living.....
the damages from diabetes is awful.....i just lost my second brother to the illness .....first brother died at 49 massive heart attack.......
2nd brother that just died was 48.....both legs amputated...blind...dyliasis.....unable to eat.....i went through major depression over it...but i realized that i had a family and had to get over it......the fear diabetes doing that to me was so scarry ...but neither brother looked after themselves...both loved to have a drink...both smoked...i gave up both years ago...it isnt worth the risk........iam diabetic 26 years and dont have any problems yet.....and iam going to keep it that way......dont destroy yourself by not looking after yourself because there are people that see what you are doing and there is nothing they can do but be there for you.......diabetes is a full time job.........look after yourself like you were getting paid 40 dollars a hour ...gl and may god bless