Tia,

Are you in the USA?  The reference to 'crisps' made me think it was maybe Great Brittain, here you usually have to go see the dr at least once a year or they won't refill your prescriptions, although some dr's probably would.  I became diabetic when I was 12 and always took my insulin, but never tested.  I met my future DH when I was 24 and the way I managed my disease remained the same until we had gotten married and I lost my job and he got one with health insurance and he said now you can stay home and we can start a family and I said I was never going to have children.  He said it was the most important thing in his life and I told him all the things I had heard about diabetes and babies and early death and I was NOT going to do it.  He insisted we go see a dr to help make the final decision.  I was very fortunate to find a great GP and then a fantastic endocrynologist, who put me on a pump and convinced me that I could have a good life if I took care of my diabetes.  I have 2 wonderful daughters, 21 and 18, both born natural, I don't have any damage to my eyes or kidneys and it's all because my DH had to have kids.  What I'm saying is your BF has to find something to live for and to take care of himself for.  I would hope for your sake that that would be you, if he can't do it for himself, but you need a heart to heart with him.  Maybe talk about what he sees as his future and where you are in it, if he won't talk, write him a letter and tell him how scared you are for him and you.  You could be the best thing that ever happened to him, I know my DH was for me.  Deidre