Dear Deb,

 

I did not know you have been going through such struggles. I am sorry to hear you have been in so much pain.

 

How amazing that you have channeled some of that pain into helping others by sharing of your spirit through these boards.

 

I want you to know, though I don't post that often, I look forward to each message which is full of your characteristic warmth and wit.

 

Blessings,

Soo

Raquel: It is possible he is jealous of the time being expended, Or it's possible, he just cares that much about your energy &health too.  BUT, for sure, you must follow that "still small voice within", that is your Christ consciousness, your higher self speaking.....

 

Never doubt it!

 

Your "nature" as you say, is to be a caring, loving soul, and it would hurt you deeply to think of another who is in pain & want.

I'm the same way, (I'm sure it must be Cancer Rising?) but more sure it's from past lifetimes and the energy which follows into this one.

 

Always follow your dream...........and always remember the ego, (is the lower part of us), that suggests we be "self-ish".,or aware of the self, to the exclusion of the higher self.

 

Don't fall for the trap, as you'd be miserable.

 

Your'e doing GREAT!! just being yourself.

 

I wish there were clones of you all over the world today.

 

And thanks for the good wishes,.........I haven't given up, Ralph & I bought the yearly beautiful birthday card for Jess, (her birthday is January 13th, and she was my 30th birthday present to myselfas my last child.

 

She will be 31 now,and I will be 61 on January 9th. (can't hardly believe it)..... Well at LEAST now, we can go into the "Early Bird Senior Buffet" and eat cheaper, LOL.

 

But as far as Jess goes, I must count my blessings here too......as Ralph always reminds me.

 

At least she now has a friend in her sister Jennifer (the middle one), who befriended her last Christmas after a long many years estrangement.....when Jess lived with the Mexican guy.

and fell out of touch with her family (ditched us all!)

 

This then  "is a blessing", that I cannot forget.

 

Her older sister (Becky), now has moved away from Arizona & all to the east coast in Pennsylvania, so, she cannot depend on Becky (Cancer Sun), to be mothering her any longer.....or helping with the twins.

This then is wonderful (beyond belief), that Jen now has access to her & the twins....just wonderful.

 

Otherwise, her parents, (Ralph & I) would be more worried, sick & devastated, so it's great that Jen is there for her and wants to be part of her life.

 

We get regular (3rd party) access to the information as well as recent photos now,(from Jen)......Aunt Jen,who will never have any children of her own,so she too benefits from the association as "Aunt Jen".

 

You know, the  bottom line Raquel, is when I married Ralph, (and this is really ironic or wierd), I said to him,(age 25), I thought we should have 3 children.

Not 2.

 

Reason, as I "intuited",?       I said, he & I were both products of only 2 siblings.....He has a sister who isn't close at all with.

She is a triple LEOand very spoiled, and he Leo at the M/C and ignored because he was "the boy".

 

Me?..........I had only one sister too. And because of being 3 years differnce, and a cultural change, (she was a REAL hippie in the late 60s, drugs, communes, the whole thing), and I was a more conservative, no drugs, no following anyone type of person.

She is Libra Sun,Cancer Moon (I think).....

 

anyway, we aren't close either......and this Jessica thing tore up the little we had together (long story)

 

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So I said, when I was 25, "We will have 3 children" so IF one of them, is ever out of favor or not with the other one, (like in our own situation) they will ALWAYS have someone to rely on!  the 3rd sister.

 

And life worked out exactly as I planned.

 

Love,

 

Deb.

 thanks Sue, you're sweet too!!for caring about a stranger.

Raquel: Today I will post a few photos, of the twins (as Jen photographed them recently at a concert for children, (PEDIATRIC AIDS concert) Jen is part of every year, with the great songwriter,/singer TomChapin

 

Tom is the brother who does children songs.....and the brother of a wonderful Singer/Songwriter (very famous) from the 70s, named, Harry Chapin. He wrote, "Cat's in the Cradle" and other hits.

 

Anyway, every year, Jen sponsers at her work, Tom Chapin comes to town to sing for the kids....who have AIDS, and this year she took the twins (and Jess) to this concert.

 

They loved it! of course, as he always has interaction with them.

 

I also have photos recently of their trip (with Aunt Jen) to the Pumpkin Patch .......the fall treat, because it's almost Halloween here.

 

Yes, they are adorable, ......even if their natal chart looks difficult.

for sure; as Ralph says, we will still be alive, and here for them to help them, as they get older.

 

I'm sure at some point, even in their teenage years, they will want to know their grandparents, and will not be under the thumb anylonger.

 

  I keep ongoing diaries, films & photos for them....

 

Life is as it should be, - we need to always have FAITH that our consciousness is expanding as it needs be.

Even when it hurts.

 

 

 

 

Deb,

 

To me, you're not a stranger. We are kindred spirits. Your heart and spirit are full of love. You have been there when I was at my lowest and felt utterly lost. You offered a hand and words of encouragement ... to me it is worth all the gold in the world.

 

Best,

Soo

you're kind Soo, we just do the best we can, with what we've got.

 

Sometimes it works sometimes it's not enough.

 

I'm glad it worked this time

 

Deb.

"If" only everyone believed as you do, the world might be a better place.

 

Love, Deb.

hi deb,

sorry to hear of your troubles, my sister i beleive has cancer rising aswell, im thinking thats where she gets her sensitive side as she has a lot of sag planets.

 

maybe we would have to look to your 6th house to see where the health afflictions are? have you recently just had your saturn return?

 

paul

Hi Paul: Thanks............, I think I did a few years ago?

 

Here's my chart (post 26)

 

 

I hope this long stay of Pluto, will treat me okay, and I'd prefer to just die then rely on anyone's help at all, (except for Ralph of course) I'd NEVER want to burden or ask a daughter for any help at all........

 

None are here now anyway, (Becky's in PA, across the country and has her own family to worry about), 2 little kids, and Jessica, ignores us.

That leaves only Jen, and she's busy with the deadbeat boyfriend, who she supports & he comes, "First" in her life now, which is understandable.

 

I'd HATE to bother her as an older person......not that she isn't wonderful, as she IS a very very nice person & very caring, BUT, I taught them all to be independent and I too need to be in the end.,as well.

 

Here is a song I always loved:

 

called, "And When I Die"......and When I'm dead & gone............

 

when he was the lead singer of "Blood , Sweat & Tears", the singer,

David Clayton Thomas (read the replies, they are interesting.....)

timeless music.

 

This was the first concert I took Ralph to see, before we married.

 They were incredible!! in person.

 

original 1970 concert......

 

clearer words............... - song.........

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

it sounds like a very moving song deb,i havnt heard of david clayton thomas,ill check those links ,thanks.

 

 

gosh,yes pluto in the 6th,i have had pluto going through my 6th for a large portion of my life ,its natally near the end of my 5th and only went into the 7th around 2003 ,i did use the energy for good use i think at the time as i was having trouble keeping a permanent job before this,once i got to the end of this transit i realised if i want to buy the things that i want to kickstart my creativity i need to try and keep a comitment in work,which was an incentive enough to try and hold down a regular job despite my anxiety in public life making my life hell.  

 

pluto dosnt mean death though, i believed i was starring death in the face around a year ago with that pluto sun oppostion and had some astrologers telling me to pray for my own safety,but i came out the other side with knowledge to see what needs changing and shifting within me.maybe you can definatly use that brilliant researching mind of yours to dig out info on how you can use the powerfull planet pluto for your own gain and turn this transit around into making it something that will benefit you.

 

hope that helps debs

 

 

 

Thanks Paul, I'll try

okay, IF you don't ever listen to the other ones posted, try this one on for size!

 

 

Lucretia Mac Evil, little girl, what's your game?
Hard luck and trouble, bound to be your claim to fame.
Tail shakin', home breakin', truckin' through town.
Each and every country mother's son hangin' round.
Drive a young man insane. Evil, that's your name

hey i like it,

its quite funky, i have slowly buildt up an appreciation of funk over the years ,james brown, burnard purdie, breakestra,loads of others aswell.good stuff