I was up till 9 am unable to sleep. I was in some amount of psychologically induced pain i think. Has this ever happend to anyone?
You know what its like when you're in withdrawal. THe sleeplessness, pain, restlessness and anxiety. Now ive been clean for 11 mnths and Im gonna have to move back to my home country in like two months and its been playing on my mind. That i gotta stay off stash when i get there. And last night worrying about it i think may have induced the pains and tht very same withdrawal. and for the first time i was like , 'holy wow. how the fuck did i think it was ok to suffer like this and deal with this pain by smoking more smack?'
I was up till nine fuckin am. I have forty pages to write before monday and i duno. im messing up without being high. sick, eh?
I am not a drg user but I am a worrier. Sometimes I lay awake at night and fo over conversations in my head that I should have said. Sometimes when you have something pressing on your mind that can happen. Recently I have been sick and was alone and afraid to go to sleep. Try to relax and do your writing..that may help you relax. Keep posting and good luck. Lori
Ohhhhh, U sound just like me! I don't sleep well no watter what, but ya I remember the withdrawls, .........8 days I had not even 1 min. of sleep!! But UR clean, could be just stress at all that is coming UR way. U said UR going back to UR home country? May I ask where that is? The mind is an amazing thing. I can get myself into a terriable state.
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