lydia,

        first allow me to extend my most sincerest love and respect to you !!!

        my name is "bobby", and i am from stockton california. and i have been

        a heroin addict for about 20 years. i am 35 years old. i have also been

        to prison many, many times due to my addiction. ive been in many re-

        lationships while being hooked on dope. and ive lost them all because

        of dope... so i completely understand your e-mail message. it is alot of

        hard work to be involved with someone while hooked on heroin. believe

        me i know!!! it seems to me,(after reading your message) that you do

        care for your man alot. but that you want him to see that if he doesnt get

        his act together soon he will end up loosing you. right???  my advice to

        you is: tell him how you feel. and what your decision is. tell him that it is

        time for you to start thinking about your life and happiness. but, tell him

        in a way that  is not without compassion. you see my friend, he is al-

        ready paying for being a hype. hes in prison. and now not only has he

        lost his freedom and dignity. but there also might be a chance he could

        loose you. and believe me, because i know!!!, there is nothing worse

        then being locked up and not have family on the outside who loves you.

        im not taking his side okay??? i know that your tired of it all. i know

        that you just want to be loved and live a normal life... and you should!!!

        all im saying is just let him down easy. and understand too, that he

        might not get it right. and that you guys just might brake-up. look at the

        whole picture alright???  if you ever need to talk,(i mean e-mail) i am

        here for you. anytime. i do understand. and by the way, just in case you

        are wondering. i am still in my addiction. fighting. but loosing!!! i will

        probably be going back to prison soon. and im actually looking forward

        to it. because you see, its the only time im clean. so if you need to get

        at me about something try to make it soon okay???(smile)  with my ut-

         most respect to you!, sincerely!!!

                                                                     bobby