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Experiences : Waited to long!!
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From: MSN NicknameMotivatedGypsy  (Original Message)Sent: 10/29/2008 3:29 AM
I haven't posted for awhile, I'm either well and off doing something else or to sick to get around. I've been putting off going back down to the Methadone clinic mostly because of forced detox and kicking the shit last Febuary. The thought of kicking the Methadone again has been my excuse for staying on shooting Heroin. Bad move on my part. For one thing I'm dope sick at least 10 days out of the month anymore anyways so it really don't make no sense. Plus the police pulled me over last week so I'm back in the system again. Luckly they didn't find the Heroin in the car but they did find some Adivans, a rig, & a spoon. They was really pissed cause I wouldn't pull over till I ate most of the pills. Anyways, with my record even something this small is bound to be bad. Now even if I go back down to the clinic it may not do me any good. This shit is pure insanity!!


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From: MSN NicknameLovingmom2433Sent: 10/30/2008 6:45 PM
Gypsys, you remind me of my son.  He was in detox the third of the time.
Couldnt work, constantly sick still trying to do it his way...
If it was easy so many people wouldnt be on metahdone or suboxone..
Maybe you ought to put it in someones elses hands and surrender that you are cant controll it???
I wish you all the best,  Much Love Karen 

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From: MSN NicknameMotivatedGypsySent: 11/11/2008 4:33 PM
Lovingmom2433.... I don't know if you'll get a chance to read this since it took me so long to respond but I hope you do!! I was going through the site here after reading your reply to my post and I came across Shattered Lives, about your son Gino. It touched me very deeply, it reflected where my mind has been..in a very Dark place. The damage we've done to our own lives through our addiction starts the depression and hopelessness but when we think of what we've done to the lives of those around us and to those we love, it becomes to overwhelming!! I do surrender and KNOW I can't do this on my own. But then what? I believe the addiction is so deep and the damage I've done is unrepairable. I just needed to get alittle off my chest and Thank You for your reply!!

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From: MSN NicknameLovingmom2433Sent: 11/14/2008 9:04 PM
Gypsy, Im so sorry your in such a deep place.  Did you go back on Methadone?
Have you tried suboxone? 
 
Life was overwhelming for my son but i dont believe it had to end in suicide like it did....
Ive made peace with his death but i believe with the right support, or right medication, he might be here now telling you to fight this with everything you got.
I do it for him cause he cant...
 
Sweetie, have you ever read the book from Pycho to Psychologist?? Written by Dr. Danato Cimini??
I got ahold of his book by a fluke which i dont believe was any concidence and you MUST read it.
If you dont have the money to buy it i can mail it to you if you give me your address, [email protected]
I would be THRILLED to pass it along..
Gypsy, I promise you, wounds heal..
People who love you will forgive and forget.
You can forgive yourself and learn to love yourself again.
As long as you allow your past to dictate your future nothing is going to change..
Push thru that fear, you can do this...
 
Much Love Karen
 
 

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