Hey.
Lily is SICK - ED sick. NIGHTMARE temp's sick. Not getting better after a week and a half of the same stuff (her temp has dropped A LOT!).
I haven't had a good night sleep for about a week.
It's Lily's b'day next Sat - poor bloody kid probably won't be well enough to enjoy it.
I still feel like I did when I got out of hospital after the op - the pain isn't as constant but when it hits.... I tried to work out with Sel (properly) yesterday and it nearly KILLED me it hurt so much (bad hurt).
We leave for NSW on 20/12 and I have to squeeze in that hosp visit I missed.
I'm still working at least 20hrs (mind you I'm being paid now, makes alot of difference). I've been getting SLAMMED, which is actually a good thing as I feel worse when I have nothing to juggle. Fourtunately Sel was here all week and will be here next week as she is training new staff. Plus I think it offers a bit of relief from all the Lily stress. If I'm not with her Sel is. I can let my guard down from maximum awareness when I'm at work. Half of Albany is under water, the other half has tree's fallen on it. FOUR people have been hit by lightening - not all here, the storms (under statement) are right up and down the coast.
It's all adding up.
I'm walking around in a daze.
I'm walking around on auto-pilot, and if Selena wasn't picking up the slack I'D BE FUCKED (mind you she's gone until Monday).
I haven't been taking my meds properly coz I'm SO DAMN TIRED.
I can feel this blank zombie look on my face. When people outside of work (even at work) talk to me it's like I'm on a 10 second delay.
Fuck me dead, I keep putting one foot in front of the other, I'm moving like lead and if I fall I'm fucked if I know who it is that's gonna be able to get me up again.
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