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From: MSN Nicknamezepfan1563unitedstates  (Original Message)Sent: 11/25/2008 7:15 AM
After eight days of not usin I copped a gram and a 1/2 . I gotta say it was nice . I have that warm fuzzy feelin that narcos give you. I know I'll pay for it. I'll be tired and just generally feel like shit for a couple days.You know if it didn't hit me in the wallet so bad and wreck my health . Put it this way if I could have a life time supply and never have to worry about money or being dope sick ... I'd never quit. There it is the truth out there for all to see. I just love the way it makes me feel. I have the energy to get things done and I don't run out of gas like I do when I'm sober.  Sorry folks but if I could use and not ever run out of dope . I would not stop.


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From: MSN NicknameAwnMineesSent: 11/25/2008 8:19 AM
Hey Zep,

Honestly, I think every addict has that same fantasy. I know I do and I can talk myself into the most idiotic "right" reasons to use. "It rained, some asshole cut me off, I didn't make as many tips as I need bar-tending, dealing with assholes who can't hold their liquor and stir up a huge hassle."

My buddy says he has to keep his kids busy to keep them out of trouble and I think the same runs for addicts. Too much time to think and we can convince ourselves black is white, day is night and getting loaded is so right. Fuck me, I hate the game.

Jack

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From: MSN NicknameLovingmom2433Sent: 11/26/2008 4:28 PM
Zep, its always the romanticizing of the drugs that will bring you back to the place of using time and time again.
People have a tendency to forget the bad things the drugs have brought them but they dont forget the good feelings.
I think once a person gets into active drug use there is never enough money to continue to live that way,
Then reality hits and thats where the struggles come from.
Dont be sorry for anything you posted, this group is for your support and to write how your feeling,
Love Karen