Hi Lisa,
I do know exactly where you are coming from. I have been in recovery for 20 years and have been through drugs, alcohol, abuse, homelessness, on death's door and the list goes on.
Believe me I still have my own demons to fight but by doing my healing and staying focused on it I have been brought from the depths of hell to where I am today. And that is from being suicidal from the time I was able to walk and talk to being able to access joy and happiness most of my waking hours.
You ask for help but then you turn around and shoot anyone down that gives you any kind of advice.
I only post through my own experiences and put out information that I know that works for people as well as myself. I am also a medical professional and work with healing the mind, body and spirit everyday. In order to heal you have to treat the body as a whole, not in pieces. You cannot treat the physical without treating the mental and the emotional. It does not work. You can surpress the symptoms by treating one aspect but that does not get to the core and produce the actual healing.
By doing positive affirmations, it does change the mind, body as well as the spirit. This is just a small pebble in a huge pond and it is a great place start if you are serious about getting well.
No one can change anything for you, people can only give you the tools to help you on your path. It is your decision on what you want to do with those tools.
I got this far in my recovery by being willing to listen to others and apply their wisdom and recovery tools that they shared.
And I was not willing to listen to anyone until my 11th year of being clean and sober because in my own sick mind I knew better then these crazy people that were telling me this wierd shit.
When I surrendered and quit fighting against the current that is when things started to change for me. They can change for you to.
Good Luck to you....
Love and Joy
Karen