heroin (don't what to call it)

 

Shadows falling across my room,

All the dancing shafts of light, are soft yet there's there's no comfort,

There's no place to find peace,

My mind craves the way I never thought possible,

The noises harsh to my ears,

Every light blinding,

The darkness envelopes me in the soothing blackness,

As night falls,

Trying to block out the pain that eats away every minute,

Foget all the people it's ruined,

About the kids like me,

There's no way out,

This time I've gone too far,

I'm falling...

Hanging out with friends, trashy punks outside drugstores,

Joints dangling from our lips,

Looking tough,

I started on Saturdays,

It spread like a fatal disease,

Fading away,

My mind a cloudy mist,

13 without a clue,

The rain too cold,

My mind so numb,

So young and blinded and here I stay,

My own locked prison,

Corrupted and suddenly 2 years have passed,

And still I'm falling,

An endless pit called addiction,

Ending in self destruction

It's too late, too late for regrets

One last time, I tell myself,

And the pain's gone

Like a wave rolling away from the shore,

A sunny day,

The heat, the familiar dreams,

Another shot,

Blood pounding through my veins,

Silence,

And then softly... bells and sounds I've never heard even in my dreams,

Sinking deep into a featherbed of comfort,

Relief... for now