I really just felt the need to put this somewhere. Apologies if this is the wrong forum.

 

Hey, Pumpkin.

I miss you. Every day. It's been a month and it feels like its been years. Everyone's adjusting. But you know all that. I know you're watching, sometimes I can feel you and it feels so strong that I want to reach out and give you a hug but there's no body there for me to grab. I hope you have some peace now and my god, megan I am so sorry I couldn't help you find it here on earth. Jules is doing great. She's talking more each day. She still says Mommy and I'm going to make sure she says it and knows you forever. Please watch Mom, and Kathy. They aren't doing so great and they need you more than ever. Maybe you thought they didn't while you were here but you were... and still are such a vital part to this family. I don't know what I could have done, but I wish more than anything that I could have shaken this shit out of you. You deserved so much better. I guess I can only hope that you knew that while you were alive. That you knew what an awesome person you were. You were more than my kid sister you were my friend. And I was a pretty shitty friend, I know. I should have been more available. But you always made sure I was okay. So, Meg, I'll stop here because there aren't words for everything I have to say. But I love you. And I miss you. And I hope so badly that you're happy now.

Love, your big brother.