Heritics of Heroin

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I wonder if withdrawal gets worse and/or harder the longer you've been at it or the older you are. Let's just say I'm somewhere around 40, but it sure feels like 6 lifetimes stuffed in there. I just stepped off the daily, every 4-6 hour, needle fetish again. I've been posting here sometimes, and even putting together 2 or 3 days off the stuff a few times in the last 2 years. I would of kept going but my guts are just hurting too damn much. Too much cut in my lungs and too many years of torture for the liver. Anyway, it's day two off the needle, but there was no way I was gonna go cold. So, I've been popping these norco tablets (10/325 hydro/tylenol) but they don't seem to do shit for me. I wanna know if anyone knows if I will get to a spot that the norco will hold me? I can't stand being where I'm at and I'm pretty sure going cold would kill me. At least I'm too sick to get out to try to score, so I guess I'm stuck where I'm at. I just hope there is some light at the end of this tunnel.

Sorry to hear you are feeling so crappy...i know the feeling...norco's are pretty tame, in my humble opinion. So,

if you have a big habit, while they will help, they ain't gonna get ya to comfortable. In relation to going cold turkey though, you are probably lucky to have the norco.

I wish there was something to say to make you feel better. Just hang in....and heheh, i think things always get tougher with age.

Anyway, i just wanted you to know that i know how you feel and it sucks.. i empathize completely.

i always found that valium helped with the leg kicks and maybe even the nausea, in fact, made the whole dopesickness thing a little more bareable. Hang in, I'll be thinking about ya.

Yeah, luckily I got called to the Bar of Doom (a local dive) last night. I sucked it up, made the drive (Gawd damn... driving was a BITCH) and a kind soul, knowing what I'm up to, cut me a deal on 200 of the blue valium. Stopped at the rail for a few Jim Beam & cokes with 40mg of Valium and *slept* last night!! Hot damn! I figure with the vals and the norco, I might be able to keep off the chiva for now. I got a good load of bupe amps, so once I'm done overdosing the tylenol I'll try the bupe again. In the past when the habit was a bit cheaper, the bupe worked like a dream! Not a damn complaint (after the 2-3 days of hurting during transition) at all. I hope to hell I can get myself to a more managable habit that won't hurt too bad during the taper and cold. But then what? I've been thinking that I might crawal back into some NA meetings, but with all the "court card" members shooting dimes in the parking lot..... it ain't easy. I don't even know what I want! I'm just too confused. I'd like to get my shit together good enough to start getting bank again, but what the hell is that? Another scam? Another ride down the "use em and lose em" track? Sometimes I just don't know if I got a good bone in my body, or if I'm the antichrist!! LOL. Sometimes I just get mean. I get a pocket full of resentments (I got a ton!) and run wild with it. What do they call it? Self will run riot? Uh huh, I can relate.

Dear Brian,my heart goes out to you,.,

Too sick to get out the door,wish I could send some magic.

Lots of water .,.,.,Kit

What you need is a drug called Lofexedine or Britlofex. It kills the pain real good. Ask your doctor or drug team worker. You'll need to monitor your blood pressure but the stuff really works well. I know.

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