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| From: junebug | Sent: 12/9/2006 7:38 AM | | Grann and Grace, I commend you both....sincerely.....leaving a marriage of many yrs is by far the hardest decision. I agree with Grann that it is feelings of pride and womanhood that pang. I am not in your shoes , either one of yours....I am in a pair of your old shoes .....I struggle daily, if not hourly with IS IT ME ? Or is it him....and most times I come to the same answer, Just give it one more yr......it will change.......so far nothing has...like Grace wrote in another thread, there can be ups and downs and changes galore, but their life always stays the same. They go to work, have their friends do their hobbies and always come home to comfort zone. One that because they pay for , they think they only have to underwrite not build....Build not the structure but place that is home to both....A quote from a fight we had a yr or so ago...Him :YOUVE CHANGED! Not me, I havent changed in forty yrs!!" ME: And you think that is a good thing??????" Yes, he gets up the same time, comes home when he wants, eats anything he wants, does his manchores if he feels like it, throws his clothes on the floor, complains about the kids, quizzes me on what I did all day, and yes, he is like clock work.....predictabley sarcastic, negative and diminishing....Is this abuse? Hardly. I have had to change to keep the plates spinning....but I am tired..and worse of all, my spirit is breaking...crumbling and falling like the twin towers...soon all that will be left of me is dust...and all those around me will be left with the effects of my inaction. I need to change something again. I will continue to pray on this and ask for your wisdom. Love to all who read this. I am sorry if I am a whiner.... | |
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