Good Morning "My Love"....

I think about  you and "us" every day.  I re-read your letter occassionally... and remember what it feels like when we are both happy to be together.   Why is it so difficult for us to keep it like that?

I daily think about how it all fell apart...and I also daily wonder what went wrong, what I did wrong to make you so unhappy with me, and made you want someone else.  And I wonder each day if it is possible for us to get all the issues discussed and out in the open so we can talk about and work through each thing separately and honestly.  

I was so happy that you said Marcy is out of the picture... that you now only have occassional business/ printing conversations with her...and nothing more is going on with her. 

I took it to mean you are not 'friends' anymore on a personal level... because I could not handle that.  Is she really "out of the picture".. as in fully out of your mind Robin????

Every time we've been together I came so close to breaking down and crying... picturing you doing to her what you were doing to me...hurting so inside.

Your words below are so loving.... yet I'm still so afraid.   Not yet able to fully trust you.

I keep remembering that back with Wanda you changed your mind back and forth a few times about her... told me it was over, told me it was me, told me you changed your mind and wanted out, told me again it was me... 

So I have to wonder if you might be doing the same thing this time.... still a bit uncertain...unsure... still wanting to go back and be friends with Marcy and talk to her, see her, date her on a personal level, not have just occassional business discussions.   Are you Robin?  Is she really totally out of your mind on a personal level? 

Since you said you wanted us back together, we have not had much time to really sit down and talk about things.   And we still need to do that... a lot.  

Everytime I've been down there I'm afraid she is in the store or restaurant where you and I are at... and you and her are looking at each other... and I don't know it because I don't know what she looks like.   White? Hispanic? Blonde?  Brunette? Short hair? Long Hair? Skinny? Tall? Short?