Silverlady,
Sorry it has taken so long to respond, my own life has been madness, simply madness. Anyhow here is what I feel and hope it helps a little.
I understand all too well the problem concerning the inner child and the struggle to bring life into the world.
If you look through history most people have felt the same, that this was the worst time ever to bring children into the world, or to have a family.
I am not certain that there ever has been or will be an ideal time to have a family or bring children into the world.
Perhaps that is the challenge, to bring children into a world of adversity and to have them try and turn the world around to one of beauty and joy.
As to the inner child. I work in an environment where I am allowed to have my innter child come out to play daily, in a senior center where I work with people with Alzheimers and Dimentia.
These poeple really bring out the child in me.
If you have pets, especially a cat that too is a great way of tapping into your inner child.
Hope this helps and my hopes and wishes go out to you. BB MM and 96