I'm actually grateful for the days of mild pain, because I know how painful it can be.  So my heart goes out to you.  I'm so sorry that you are having a hard time.  I do know what it's like for me. 

 

I have to use a cane now, and I used to enjoy long walks.  I just can't go out the front door now, it's like a major operation.  A shower or bath is difficult, as well.

 

I think to myself that I'm glad it's not something like MS or Parkinsons.  I have to think that way in order to get through some days.  I do get some remission, and then I'm really grateful for the good days.