They are checking my thyroid and a referring me to a gastroenterologist (probably didn't spell that right...lol) and checking some vitimin or mineral levels or something like that.  They are doing a whole battery of tests on me and checking EVERYTHING....lol.  I am going in on Monday to finish up the testing....one of them is a fasting test so I wasn't able to do it the same day.  I hate fasting...lol....I need my coffee in the morning....lol.  Thank you again for your support.  I think part of me is doing this to say "see....I tried it and it didn't work"...but I am trying not to think negative thoughts because I do believe that the mind has the power to heal and if I give up and give in....the Fibro and Endo will take over my body and I will be in horrendous pain.  I am terrified but I have to do it.  If in the end it doesn't work, I hope this treatment program will at at least help me to not take more than I am supposed to should I ever go back on pain meds.  I am also afraid of withdrawals and that is part of my motivation .....not ever having to experience withdrawals....but then again...when the pain gets bad...I wonder what everyone will say when I can't move or get out of bed.  Perhaps I can have my husband hold my medication if it comes down to that but I have to see if this will work....for him and the in-laws because they are so anti medications....even OTC meds...they don't take.  My husband had a mass removed from his arm and threw away 45 percocets and took nothing for it.  He will not take tylenol for a headache...he says drink water and put a towel on your head.  Medications are poison to them with the exceptions they choose to make like blood pressure, or heart meds or arthritis meds but nothing related to pain meds, pain blockers or anything that will cause withdrawals.  They just truly do no understand.  They don't but I am determined to give it an honest effort.  I am changing my diet to a gluten/wheat/dairy/soy/red meat diet, exercising regularly and get back down to my goal weight so that there is nothing that anyone can say "well you just need to try this".  I'm going to try Yoga, acupunture, pilates, warm water therapy and anything else I can think of and check off my list of "did you try this".  I pray to GOD that one of them works...that would be awesome but I am also prepared if they don't....but they are not.  I don't know...I know I have a problem with taking too much so I need to go to learn how to take them as prescribed and talk to my doctor before upping my dose on my own.  If I had done that in the first place, perhpas I wouldn't be going through my second rehab.  I guess I have no self control when I am in pain.  I am so torn.....I feel like such a failure and weak for not being able to push through the pain like he and his family do.  But they just dont understand....I tried explaining the fatigue and they said oh no you're fine....I bet if we replace your coffee with decaf you wouldn't know the difference.  My husband asked me why I was sleeping in the middle of the day....he clearly doesn't understand.  I am with my in laws and I cleaned and swapped 3 rooms yesterday and am paying the price today.  I feel like shit and I am tired as hell but no-one seems to care or understand.....but that's ok.  I am learning to accept their way of thinking and respect their opinions even if I disagree.  They seem to think I can will this away...perhaps I can.....I don't know..anyways....thanks for the support and sorry for the LONG BOOK I just wrote...lol

 

dollface

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From: AlbanyLinLin5 Hi Dollface   I'm so glad that your liver is healthy.  And have you also had you Thyroid checked?   This is a tough thing you are trying, and I will be sending postiive thoughts your way.   Wishing you all the best.   LInLin

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