Ok, this is really troubling me, so I hope you can all help.

 

I live alone with two dogs. I am in a wheelchair. I have a large house with a large yard. I get disability money, (just under $700)  I get alimony. ($600)  I found out that if I lie about the alimony, I can qualify for government assistance. I have been having trouble making ends meet. My bills are around $1200 a month. I can barely feed me and my dogs, let alone replace worn out shoes and clothes.

I am told that I will be able to have someone come and help me with chores around the house and yard. I am told that I would qualify for food stamps. I am told that I would qualify for help in paying my utility bills. All of these things I need, but I would have to lie and tell them I do not get alimony.

Now I know that many people lie in order to survive in this world. It is sad that our assistance programs force this on us.  But my concience bothers me. I cannot justify a lie. I am needy, but other's out there are more needy than I am. If I take the assistance, perhaps I am taking from someone else that needs it more.

But even greater than this, I ask myself, "Where is your faith?"  Throughout my life I have had struggles. I have had terrible things happen to me. But never once has God let me down. He has always come through in my most desperate moments. I must believe that He will do so again, without lies, without the government assistance.

I am being pressured by others around me to, "Go get what you deserve! You worked hard all your life, you earned it. Everyone does it."  But where is the moral compass? Where is the integrity?

I cannot live my life based on lies. I cannot justify the "just take it" philosophy. The world owes me nothing. I have been blessed with so much!    Am I wrong?  Please tell me. Am I alone in this thinking?

Crinkle