Good for you, Gracie! Glad to hear that you are in better spirits this morning. You hang in there girl and remember to always put yourself first and do what is good for you! I was the same way for many years, always trying to please someone else and keep things on an even keel but that did nothing but make me miserable and unhappy. I had a good husband in many ways, he did not mistreat me or the boys but everything had to be done his way, where we went, how long we stayed, what we bought and on and on. Then I had a very dominating mother that wanted to come first in my life and I thought I had to keep her happy also......and that was not easy. What a mess I was for many years......After my breakdown I begin to realize that I had to put my feelings on the table in plain sight for everyone and not let anyone knock them off.....Things then begin to change and I begin to feel like I mattered. And also took the opportunity to tell them how I felt.......and trust me, it sure felt good! I still tend to have some depression from time to time but at least now I know what to do when I feel it coming.....get busy doing something and remember that I am important and so are my feelings......So, hang tough girl and know that we are with you and care very much about you............hugs, Pat