Greetings RavenFey..this HAS been a rough year for you. Its so hard when we lose those we love..it sorta leaves a hole, doesnt' it. Your loved ones would want you to live..and live well.. it was their time..I'm sorry for your loss..
As for your precious kitties..I don't think that your crazy and your new kitties sound absolutely adorable..love and enjoy them to the fullest...
As for your job..the one that your educated for..I believe theres a reason as to why you feel so passionate about going back for History.. you sound like your really drawn to do this.. when you speak about your *job* you sound greatful for having a job..you sound passionate about wanting to make an impact, there are good people..but you sound frustrated..and I feel a yearning for something.. is it possible you may of learned or gotten all that you need to maybe better or prepare yourself for something else? Having a job is important..to pay the bills etc.. if you an an opportunity to do something you really want to do.. sweetie..I think that throughout your posting..you were answering your own question..
Your Group.. if you feel this negatively about the group..and by what you've shared..you have good reason.. then follow your heart..maybe hand the reigns over to someone else..like above with your job..maybe you've just outgrown your present lifestyle or whatever you want to call it.. you've done everything you needed to do..you've gotten or learned all you were meant to.. I'm not putting this very well..I know what I want to say.. I can tell you one thing though..when I'm faced with a negative situation.. I want to remove myself as quickly as possible. I learned this from our Rowan.. don't jeopardise yourself..
I love your coming years resolutions..I think you're going to be alright. History, sweetie, I don't know what you do for a living..what you were educated to do..but going back to school for history..is this going to complement what you already have? Or is this a new adventure for you..personally, I'm excite for you..
Please..stay in touch..
Live Life With Heart~celtie