my Dearest ery, Hello again. *smiles*    Writing this letter feels a little better than the last one. In the last year ... time has now turned in such a way that i have been without you in this world , twice as long as with. A strange thought, yet , i feel you stronger & more present as time goes by. We were allowed a very short window of time to be one another's friend. I often consider the things we said and treasured between us. i think of the sometime 'sureal' stage upon which our scene was played, and i wonder.... How much can two people come to know one another in such a short time ? ..Can they capture the essence of each other in such a short time, it is enough to say they 'knew them well' ?..Can they see everything there, of value without knowing years and years of details? without touching each others flesh ? Yes they can, cant they sweetheart. and thankyou for proving this to me more than any one single person i have ever known. There are no bounds to what the short span of time i was given with you as my sis , have yielded. you reach me constantly in ways i can see now. i see subtle changes in me, wonderful things i have embraced, because of you. Because you loved me , touched me , taught me and are with me, i know things about myself i did not know before... and i always thought myself . *grins* a pretty old dog. .Like ripples in a pond ery, so you, and i, will go on and on. i see that now , much more clearly than before.    im not sure that makes it any easier to say it has been two years since you left us in this space, and went to the next, but it does fill me more with the 'presence' of you, and soothes the ache in my heart from your loss. i still miss your giggle.    While we sat there with you those last few days , your family played music you had collected and loved . Music you and i had shared. Music you had shared with many others . i kept many of those songs and their lyrics, one in particurlar jumped out at me while i was thinking of what to say to you here . This song had been played over and over , you had loved it. i could feel you smile as i read the words this time , their meaning had been distant to me two years ago , but now as i considered the lyrics i could hear that sweet voice whisper in my ear...'now you get it, dont you fury sissa?' . Yes , i do sweet sis . Thank you.  i love you, and ill talk to you soon. yours Always fury   Silent Lucidity Queensryche   Hush now don't you cry Wipe away the teardrop from your eye You're lying safe in bed It was all a bad dream spinning in your head Your mind tricked you to feel the pain Of someone close to you leaving the game of life So here it is another chance Wide awake you face the day Your dream is over or has it just begun There's a place I like to hide A doorway that I run through in the night Relax child, you were there But only didn't realize and you were scared It's a place where you will learn To face your fears retrace the years And ride the whims of your mind Commanding in another world Suddenly you hear and see This magic new dimension I-will be watching over you I-I'm gonna help you see it though I-will protect you in the night I-I'm smiling next to you in silent lucidity Hug me if you open your mind for me You won't rely on open eyes to see The walls you build within come tumbling down And a new world will begin Living twice at once you learn You're safe from pain in the dream domain A soul set free to fly A round trip journey in your head Master of Illusion can you realize Your dream's alive you can be the guide but I will be watching over you I I'm gonna help you see it though I will protect you in the night I I'm smiling next to you