Step 8 of the 12 steps

I stop blaming and feeling blamed, with a willingness to heal the wounds.

Original wording (AA):
Made a list of all the people we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.

Pleasure in Revenge

There is great satisfaction in getting revenge for what others did to you. If you can hurt them, in turn, at least you'll stop being a punching bag, you'll show them!

It's understandable that there are people you'd love to hurt even more than you've done so far.

Step 8 is about realizing how much revenge and blame are ingrained in all of us... and starting to walk away from these tendencies.

A different focus

Why is that? As long as you keep blaming others (or feeling susceptible to blame), you cast yourself in the role of a powerless victim. You say you have no power over your actions. You pretend you're such a powerless puppet that even the harmful things you do are other people’s responsibility!

You’re following these Proactive Twelve Steps to regain power over the things you can have power over. You may not have much power over other people... but you certainly have power over the way you behave.

If you acknowledge that there is some pleasure in your harming other people, that it is your way of feeling less powerless... then you're no longer stuck on the defensive. You now have a choice between continuing to do the same thing, or moving on.

At some point, you may decide that, while there is some pleasure in revenge, it's not really what you want most out of life�?that you'd rather focus on being happy.