hmmmmm,well,with me,hmmmmm. Lots is going on really. I had the two back surgeries,a lower discectomy as well as a fusion in my neck to fuse 3 vertibrate( i think thats how its spelt(lol) My partner retired from the police force,moved here to the country in NC. I am sometimes insane, but still clean and sober going on 4 yrs now. I never thought i would make it this far and with this maniac of a partner i sometimes wonder if i'll nake it another day ,yet, i keep asking My higher power for another sober day and its given to me.

     I am not sure if y'all knew but the day i was released to go back to work after the 2nd back surgery the company i had worked at for 8 yrs laid me off before i could even clock in the first day of my return. I was unemplyed for almost a yr. Doctor bills pileing up,no insurance and a small unemployment check made it very hard to get by. Luckily my partner and my niece were paying their 3rd of all the bills otherwise i would have lost my little 2 acre farm. See how God does wonders and works in our lives !!!!!

    Well, the next town over had built the building for a new wal-mart and I found out they were hiring people to help put all the shelves,etc... up as well as to stay on to work there. They hired me for the produce dept but at the time there was nothing but a floor,walls and the electricians there. I helped all the folks and management set everything up. I was hired in january 2008 and we opened march 2008. I was just a worker bee in the produce dept. Then the supervisor,who was very unhappy with her position decided to transfer to her hometown in upstate new york. I took the supervisor test and applied for the job and i got it. I whent from a level 4 pay grade to a level 7. I just had my yr evaluation and am getting a forty cent raise. I guess i could say life is gr8 other than the occasional disagreements with my partner and my inner fight with myself. By Gods grace i am still clean and sober. The many things that make my life insane tend to be outside of myself ie; my family,my partner,my job and helping care for my mom.

     Sometimes i am very very down, today is one of those days. Even with all the good that is going on in my life i still feel the tug of the worlds pain deep within me. Right now I just want to go to bed and cry but ,not me, im too proud to do either when i am in mental agony. Im too strong to let the bad in my life take back over and bring me to my knees before the power of alcohol and drugs.

    One of the goats died this morning to wich my partner fully blames me for. He says i do not react fast enough when he tells me a goat is ill. Although he will tell me one is ill at 9 pm when i get home but the next morning he will say it looks like its doing better so i figure if its doing better then i dont need to do anything. Its a long story but today has not exactly been a good day. It should have been, as yesterday wal-mart had a visit from the home office with several of the biggest names within the company who told me my department looked better yesterday than it did on grand opening. I should be happy but with all this blame being put on my shoulders i feel terrible and guilty though realisticly i know i shouldnt. AA has tought me not to take what other people say personaly and that it is them lashing out at their own feelings of guilt but no matter how hard i try not to feel bad it still happens. Yet, i am still sober. Aint God wonderful, to keep me sober even thru all this.

    Well, i reckon y'all have heard enough, i got supper to cook and xleaning to do. Y'all have a great day and thanks a heap for thinkin of me when i am not always able to write anything back to the group. However, i do make it to my email at least once a week and read thru the emails i get from it.

    signed with x's and o's,

           contry

 

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From: Brandflake301
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OMG Contry!  Where have you been?!?  What is up?  So good to see you  Here we were all wondering what had happened to you.   As far as the post, they survey everything for good and not so good reasons but I would rather know what the heck has been going on with you my friend?   Welcome back   B

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