That strikes close to home for me Kat .... My fiance died one morning .... I picked her up in my arms to lay her on the floor as I was told to do by 911 ... when the paramedics arrived and took over and began to take her out, they told me that she only had a small spark in her heart and that it did not look good as they carried her out ... It is never easy to lose someone you love or care about, but you always find a way to carry on till life begins again