I came to You kicking and screaming all the way

For too many years, I held You at bay

Through many dreary dark nights

I refused to see your bright shining light.

 

I was blinded by the darkness and depth of despair

You only asked for the lessons to be learned

I refused to do the work while my rage burned

My lessons had to come in many a pair

I would not listen or give my attention

Finally, my entire life became a point of contention.

 

I thought I could walk down this path alone

Without a map, without a guide, I tripped over one too many stones

When I worried about earthly pleasures

I should have thought about Heavenly treasures.

 

When my mind was thinking of platitudes

I should have been living in gratitude

When my patience was wearing thin

You showed me I was without sin.

 

You became my hope, my inspiration and my guide

Through Your love I would survive

For my life, I am forever in Your debt

No longer, do I mind having my attitudes reset

For every need, You have always provided

As it was today, through my tomorrows, I will be guided.

 

Everyday, You sent words of courage

No longer will I be locked in a state of rage

I am thankful, there really was no test

Now, I have Your help to judge what is best.

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My tomorrows will be complete

My trust in You will be replete

Now, my eyes have been opened and my heart has been healed

And through a golden beam of light, my faith in You has been resealed.

 

Laurel Lindberg, April 1997

 

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