This a personal experience i would like to share with you, growing up
was not the easiest thing for me my parent being in a religion that
if you had a different view point you would be disfellowshipped
which ment you couldnt talk to anyone you knew and even your
family wasnt supposed to talk to you until you came around and
viewd things the religions way of viewing it. My mother to as a
person would judge me and my sis very harshly and would
beleive others over us so we really felt like we were not worthy
of our own opinions and it was like listen but dont speak. Think
but only if it is in the standards of what you are learning in the
church. Although I have moved passed all of this you all know
how the old can creep back in and we all need reminders. So heres
my experience of something that happined last night.
I was feeling aches and pains in my stomach and had a fever I
ended up going to bed early like at 700pm. I had so much pain
it was like flu symptoms. I heard this light beating on a drum
noise. I saw what it was like one of those ancient instruments that
you hold in your hands and make a rolling motion which causes
the string that is attached to the top to move and hit the drums. Its
an ancient instrument used to keep rythim and bring peace to
thoughts. Then they appeared the monks they were all around me
healing and talking to me. One stood out he looked like the Dalih
Lamma with blue eyes. While he was talking to me my pain was
gone. He told me its ok to show emotion even anger, you are human, emotions are part of you. You must live your life the way
you live it, not like others. People think people just want to hear the
good experiences of life, but then, how do we learn what to do with
hard times if you dont share those times also? Not everyone is going
to agree with messages you share but, that does not matter. There
will be one person that will need to hear the message you have to
give. Speak your thought do not hold back your words, they need to
be heard like everyone else. you will net speak words that has never
beed heard before for we are one and all have been there. You are
worthy to speak how you feel, so speak! Peace to you.
Love lightwalker