Well! 

I have read and read and read some more.

I have learned so much.  You are right when you say that knowledge is the key. 

I know now that I am the one who is in charge of this quit.  I am the only one who can keep it going .  At the end of the day it is me who can choose to be a smoker or a non smoker.  I chose to be a non smoker.  I need to keep in my mind the reason that I wanted so badly to quit.  It was not a little whim.  I felt ill, tired - I knew that it would kill me, as it did both my parents.

I used to dream about what it would be like not to have to smoke.

Now I Know.  I need to start feeling really proud of myself and stop complaining to myself that I want a cigarette -  WHICH I DEFINATELY DON'T!  I know that if I gave in and had one - or even a puff - I would not get the satisfaction that I think I would.

I said that I wanted to forget that I ever smoked. The truth is, I need to remember that I did smoke and how awful it was - and be grateful and thankful for every day that goes by and I don't smoke.

 

I know that eventually the urges and craves will go. I just need to go one day at a time.

I know that the secret to my success is never, ever to have another puff.

 

I know that if it wasn't for this site I would never have lasted this long.

I also need to keep reading . 

I have learned so much more than this, but at this rate I will be writing a book!

 

Thank you once again for your advice. 

Mary