Here I sit, Chamber...I feel so defeated.  My weight still refuses to leave and I know I will need to do something but  am so terriably tired.  If I did not know better, I would seear I was in the depths of depression.  The truth is,  am just so disappointed in my efforts of getting into shape.

 

I am PLEADING for help in this effort .  I need to be healthy.  So many are depending on me.  I guess I am feeling  abit overwhelmed right now.  I just found out that I will need to find some way to get some $$ to buy another computer.  I lost all my data when the motherboard went down on my old computer...this Laptop that I borrowed will only be available for a very short time and I worry so much about what I am going to do. 

 

This is overriding my will to take care of myself which I am sure is also keeping me from losing any weight ...I find myself wanting to binge eat and I know that does no good either.  Even thought I do not have a lot of fattening foods in the house..I still have bread and a few things that tend to be calorie-ridden .  I sure hope there is an answer...Maybe..just maybe, somethingwill come up that will be a breakthrough.  I a so tired of worry and fret....this is not what I am about and I will not allow this to take over my life.

 

All is possible with the determination and knowing that success is what I make it.  I will be ok..I will get on track ..I will......I WILL!  So mote it be!