Sherry, dear....You really hit the nail on the head...the words you wrote are so true for all of us....we just have to take one day, one hour, and sometimes one minute at a time.
I took over a month off from work after Bobby died. And, just before I was supposed to go back to work..my husband and I went to the coast for a few days. We had never been to Hurst Castle, so we decided to go. It was 5 miles up a hill on a bus to get to the castle. I found myself smiling and enjoying the trip, and then my eyes filled with tears as I felt so guilty for actually having a good time.
I know that my Bobby, and your James, would not want us to feel guilty for going on living and enjoying it...they loved us and would want us to be happy....but, it is sometimes hard to do.
Thank you for sharing your feelings of your first year.
Hugs...Rean