Rean.....I know it is so heartbreaking to remember the child we lost. It doesn't have to be a baby....as long as it's your child or grandchild (both in my case) your heart cries for them and longs to have them back, and I know that the hurt you are feeling never goes away. I lost my Richard at birth and I can still remember that day like it was yesterday. I never had the chance to even see him, but I know I love him and always will. Andy had just turned 17 when he died....he wasn't a baby and he wasn't even my child, he was my grandchild and I know love him and miss him terribly, and I know I will never forget him, or the day he died......4 years ago today. I lost my 22 year old sister in a tragic house fire in 1978, and I thought I would never get over her death. She wasn't a child, and she wasn't married, but she was my sister and I loved her dearly because she was such a good person who would give you the shirt off her back if you needed it. I don't believe it matters how old they were, I think it's more about how much you loved them. Love is a mysterious word and can be used in various contexts, but when it affects the heart it's the one that is eternal. Hugs...Shannon |