Jacob

 

I miss and love you so much munchkin.  I feel so torn between staying with Joshua and being with you.  I wish I knew you were happy and that your not missing me.  I hate the thought of you missing me and needing me and I'm not there.  You'll always be my first son and I'll always be your mummy Jacob. 

I want to tell you how much you mean to me and how much I love you but I don't know how there arn't any words that could even nearly express my love for you.

Your my son, I'm your mummy and it'll always always be that way

I love you munchkin

I Miss you xxxx

Lots of love, hugs and kisses from Mummy x