Maria...What a beautiful little boy...having lost a son myself, I certainly understand your pain...it doesn't matter the age, sex, or reason, they are our babies and we love them dearly...and their passing leaves a huge hole in our heart and our lives.  My heart aches for you in your pain...it does get easier with time, but, will never go away completely.  Be kind to yourself and give yourself time.

Love and hugs...Rean