My Heart aches for you I am so sorry for your loss I am also a mother of 3 boys I lost my son Benn in jan as well he was my oldest death of a child is like nothing one can explain all I know is if I could hug you Iwould my heart is with you .I did notice the picture where you and justin are he is wearing a t shirt with Canada on it I am from Vancouver.I also have a grandson his name is Justin I spent time with him last night he is 17 and he was also bulled in school he seems like the older he gets the less he talks.Love and Light to you andf your Family Whispy Susan