I try really hard to live my life to the fullest each day. But, I still think that since we are human.....we all will have moments that we look back on and wish perhaps we had done something differently. It is these regrets that can rip your heart apart during grief. I try hard though to give them to God.......my faith is deep. I've been fortunate that my faith has not waivered during this time...but only become stronger. I don't believe that God created cancer and wanted our precious little Rachel to suffer with it......I believe He cried with us and promised us that He would care for her when she went home to him. for that i'm so grateful and it makes any regrets a little easier to bear.
Now.....every single day I wake up thankful for a new day...even though some are hard to get through......but, i know Rachel would have loved each day....she always did! Other days i wake up and think that this would be a good day for the rapture to happen..........everyday is just so different on this road of grief.
So.....regrets......I have a few......then again......I have more blessings to count..........
Live each day doing what you think should be done........doing what you can look back on and think..."I'm so glad I did that!" instead of "I wish I would have....."
It's hard sometimes........but with God's help......I can do it!
I have to....... (HUGS) Cindy