I to have been suffering depression now for so many years. About seven to be prosaic, since I lost Lee, Then I lost my Mum Dad husband and now my brother. Some times I feel like I don't belong to my own body, If you can under stand, I feel like I want to just give up and be with them. I live on my own and in a town that i really don't know any one. I am not the type of person that can just up and meet people. So I don't have any one to talk to except the gentleman I now am seeing. But He does not under stand me. He thinks that when someone dies you should just move on. Well, I am sorry but Lee was and is my youngest son. To be taken like he was, is so hard to deal with even after all the seven years. As for my Mum Dad Husband and Brother, they as you say had a good life My Mum was 75 years my Dad 86 Husband 73 and brother not so old but 61 years. But still I miss them. My depression is less now but i still get it. I will not take the tablets that the doctor gives me as i would not like to get addicted. So now when i feel like crying I think of Lee and talk to him, this helps me personally.   Lovelight