Awkwardly, imperfectly, fighting it every step of the way, In frustration and confusion....full of sadness, riddled with sorrow, knee deep in denial...being misunderstood and misunderstanding what others say, what they do....ANGER.....disbelief....bargaining....surrendering to pain....It all sounds easy enough, to work through...... in a book, on paper, and even in our minds....... until the time that death darkens our door and we are left to live with the aftermath.....accepting our losses takes time....and lots of energy....we are tired and drained...and that adds to confusion and pain....So when you think you aren't doing well....YOU PROBABLY AREN'T DOING WELL....and that is, unfortunately, very normal at this time in your life. Hoping that brighter days are on the horizon..... |