Nancy, you did nothing wrong....which is what the word guilt implies....just as I did nothing wrong....I know that our children would not want us to feel this way....and I also know how hard it is not to feel this way sometimes.........our love can do a lot, but, not in this case.
I wish that I could give you a big hug right now....I think you need one....
You are in my thoughts and prayers for peace and gentle healing.
Love and hugs....Rean