All of us here at Child Loss--Grieving With The Family...know, all to well, what it means to "start over".
For me, I had to 'start over' 6 years ago after I lost my son, my precious Bobby. I took a long time off work... and when went back to work, I felt like everyone was watching me to see if I was 'ok', and they were very careful to not say anything wrong. A couple of years later, when it seemed that other family members, (including Bobby's wife and children) were moving on.....I felt as though I was stagnating...stuck in a rut...(get up, to to work, come home, sit on the couch untill bedtime, go to bed and not be able to sleep, get up and go to work....and the cycle seemed to go on and on......My husband and I decided we HAD to do something to get out of the hole we were in...so, when I retired, we sold the house in California that we had lived in for 30 years......and we moved to Oklahahoma and bought another house....that seemed to help...but, it created another problem....now I miss my daughters and grandchildren and friends back in California.
It is coming up on Bobby's birthday....he would be 36 years old on July 27. It is hard to imagine that day without him here. But, he is seldom out of my mind for long , and always in my heart!
I know that your loved one is always in your heart, also.
Others here have had to attempt to start over more recently. Please, tell me how you dealt with "starting over".
Love and hugs...Rean