Dear Mary....I am sorry that you have to go through this kindof pain. I certainly understand how you feel. I still have days when all I do is think and cry, and then cry some more. Some days are worse than others. BUt, I can say that for the most part, no day is as bad as in the beginning. It will get easier for you as time goes on. I know that does not seem like a possibility right now. I did not think so either when I was told that when I first started out on this long and rough grief journey. Just try to take one day, and sometimes one hour or one minute at a time and try to stop in here and pour out your feelings. That is what we are here for. To listen when no one else seems to care or understand. We do understand, and we do care.
Wishing you peace and gentle healing.
Love and hugs....Rean