I think the saturn saturn square is exact.........at this moment.any thought would be appreciated and many thanx with your time...

 

YES, it is exact right now, and NO, I don't think this is the time to leave or give up.  The Saturn square will be one of the very hardest, and with your situation, your daughter's sole caregiver, the hardships that Saturn in the 12th house brings to bear, I think you need a place to emit your frustration & emotions, whether it be a study group (like an Edgar CAyce Study group in your area, as they are everywhere.....in all the states & in various countries too), would be an excellent way to find the support you need.

 

Not that there are Astrologers there, but there is support for karma and life's circumstances, as well as having Meditation with a group, each week.

 

Or if not Cayce Study groups, then, perhaps another avenue, even the singing, on the part time basis, as a 'fun" means of expression, to lighten the burden for awhile until Saturn moves past the exact square.

 

Nothing about Saturn is easy, that's why it's called "Lord of Karma", because it brings to bear all the things we need in life, or in need of learning.

 

We always think there are no things such as it delivers we are in need of, (I know, been there , done that)........but it's true non the less.

 

To "go with the flow" then, as being a rock on the shore of a mighty stream, steadfast, buffered, while the stream finds it's shoreline, you can be the ROCK, that is secured, fastened during the turmoil around you.

 

Perhaps, this is the reason why things are hard at work, so you may overcome exactly the kind of frustration that a Cancer Moon & Pisces MC would experience by the actions of others?

 

To find and use FAITH that what happens to us, in this life, although it "seems" so unfair and so unhealthy at times, is actually for our inner growth.

 

Therefore, if it's a Study group, for Meditation with a group setting, or singing in the lounges part time, for recreational purposes, or even the comedy for recreation, just to help you keep your bearings, during this period in time, you can come out of it, not battered, but stronger for the stay.

 

Good luck Cynn, in whichever way you choose.

 

CLM.

WHY is it so very difficult for me to show my vulnerable side to others. It's like I get stressed out and suffer some unfair incident and I go shut myself up and appear wayward. I resort into my logical thinking side and bottle my emotions up - thus my anxiety attacks.

 

Maybe it's an escapist behavior - shutting the wolrd out and not being aseertive or speaking up for myself.

 

I find when I'm doing my stand up comedy I still am guarded on stage. It takes me such a very long time to warm up to people. Sometimes it's like I DARE NOT show my feelings.....I spent 30 someodd years acting like a chameloen trying to maintain peace in relationships. While I secretly agree to disagree.

 

I figure I need to get one of those jobs that puts me out there - in the spotlight - where I must open up and engage with the audience. I find I don't get enough practise with karaoke and my weekly 5 minutes of stand up. When I focussed more on my singing, this gave me more time in the spotlight.......

 

I'm a recovering introvert - it been quite a challenge for me moving from the dark table in the corner and being silent to standing on stage talking about my life or singing songs. I know in my heart of hearts this is the direction I must take.

 

I still don't like being a caregiver - and I'm certain a change is needed.....progress should happen shortly after April 18th.....

 

Ty again CLM

 

Cyn

you should follow your heart Cynn....

 

I always think this......If you follow your heart and it ends up in pain you can always console yourself and never suffer regret....If you don't follow your heart and the chances pass you by, you will be inconsolable.

 

well.....

 

just wanted to offer some help...

 

 

 

Always good advice Tim, to know one's true heart & motivations, but it takes a lifetime for some.

 

I'm sure Cynn will be back to this thread an see your advice to her at some point.

 

I just think she's been very overwrought, confused & upset.

 

Saturn square Saturn is a pisser!