1^st Dream after Jessica’s death:                early morning hours of  Aug. 29^th, 2008

Ralph remembers being on a street, in  a town  which appeared familiar somehow to him,

He went into this  building and up to the 2^nd floor and walked through an opened doorway into a narrow room that he felt was like a “small courtroom�?of some kind. He didn’t see anyone, and noticed it had a commercial style carpet on the floor, Oak wood everywhere, reminding him of a courtroom.  (a judgement hall?) but very small...(she will not be accountable for it all, not the mental illness part)..

He was in the back of the room, facing forward and to the left of him, was the back side of a staircase, that led “up to a higher level”�?.and to the right, there were two kinds of plush looking chairs, kind of suede looking fabric, one darkish brown and mauve.<o:p><

The chair on the left was empty, and the chair on the right was Grandpa Clarence. (deceased)in 1999

As he remembers, Grandpa was wearing a kind of light winter jacket a kind of older style like from the 1950s. .  Ralph didn’t say anything to him, just put his right hand, on his left shoulder as he sat there, just to let him know he was there and then he sat down beside him

Grandpa Clarence started talking, and rather loudly (as he was known to do in life too) and as Ralph still felt�?it was a courtroom setting, so he was speaking a bit too loud for this setting�?(was the feeling he got)

He was talking about what he had to do tomorrow, so he wouldn’t see Ralph tomorrow, is what he was explaining to him.

He was talking about when you have a rocking chair on a wood floor that has been there for so very long , how it wears “ruts�?into the floor�?.suggesting it was the kitchen floor in the old apartment, and someone was “coming to inspect�?and he had to repair this floor rut somehow.

Ralph started to suggest using wood stain, or another cover up �?to repair it, but Grandpa kept saying “Blot �?Blotting would do it, and you don’t need anything else!!  He said, “you don’t understand, it needs to be blotted�?/SPAN>

This is why he wouldn’t be there tomorrow, then he said, “I won’t be seeing you , but I will wash your feet�?/SPAN>

Ralph knew that someone else was supposed to be here and knew there was a doorway that led to a living type of space quarter, and that someone had called in sick, yet was living right there.  He felt, that “the person must have really been sick, and calling in sick, to do that…�?.to call in to say “I’m too sick to come to work, �?yet living right there beside the courtroom.  Ralph devised that the person missing must have been truly that sick to have said she was, as people would have been able to see her, and knew differently.

(How we interpret this dream):

The ruts in the floorboards are consciousness, and the word or concept or ruts as Rudolph Steiner said, is what repeated thinking in one direction creates in our consciousness.

These “ruts�?need now to be repaired

Edgar Cayce spoke of it, not as ruts, as Steiner did, but rather as like a “Groove on a record stylus creates�?so, the same idea here

The “Blotting out”……that Grandpa said we don’t comprehend that can be done, may have to do with a spiritual thing that indeed, can be beneficial and helpful to her.,of many harsh memories she has created when in body

It seems to us that Grandpa was conveying to Dad that he (Grandpa) was somehow going to help Jess (the sick girl  who wasn’t yet in the courtroom there ),but was in the adjoining room.

He was saying that there will be help for her, and that he (Grandpa) will “wash Ralph’s feet�? which Dad feels has to do with a spirtual type of context, as Jesus, would “wash the feet of his disciples”……so too, will Grandpa  try to humble himself, to help Ralph through this terrible time we face.

We  took much consolation from this first dream since her passing.