Angelheart, you have no idea how happy you have made me by posting today to know your still around and that I have posted something that has touched you in a way you can relate to. I know what you mean people don't want to really hear how were feeling they just ask cause they think it's the proper thing to do or something so in that case they shouldn't ask at all. If we were to try and tell a friend how were really feeling or how things were going they probably wouldn't come around again which was the case with all of my friends. You should NEVER feel guilty for having MS it is not your fault and you are the victim of the disease you didn't invite it into your life and body. I am so happy to see you post and would love for you to chat with us more if you feel up to it or have the time. I will be adding more information on the board for info. available on request and it's going to be on ms so keep an eye on that board and you can request free information. God bless you, (((gentle hugs))), Karly