HI Jack, Im going to try this again,  I posted to you and it went poof, who the hell knows where those lost emails go lol.

 

Jack,  Did you Mean Deep Ressesion, or Deep Depression?

If its deep ressesion join the club, .lol.

I live in Michigan and the city i live in is number one for forclosures so i see it everywhere.  Hopefully its going to start to get better soon.

 

If your suffering more depression you need to talk to your therapist about it.

Your on meds right?  Sometimes they quit working and need to be tweeked a little bit.

 

If i knew i was going to die tomorrow what would i do??

I would gather my friends and family over and cook for them and leave a warm feeling in there hearts

I truley have No regrets, I use to but regrets are wasted time and energy.

Everything is exactly the way it suppose to be, 

Much Love Karen

Hey Karen,

 

Those lost emails, I hear ya.  So frustrating.  I think they all end up with the socks that disappear.

 

I did mean depression although the other way you took it is another expression relating to our economy today.  Hopefully, things in that area will begin to change (hopefully for the better) with our new President.

 

I have checked with my M.D. and therapist about my med's and if something needs to be changed.  He's (my M.D.) is going through my records and looking at what may help. 

 

I saw my therapist today and talked about the whole death thing - feeling it all around me lately and this feeling of impending doom.  He said the depression is what is causing me to have those feelings.  My depression and anxiety go up and down and always hit me when I seem to feel things are pretty much o.k.  That's what makes it even more intense and I hate it.

 

What also has me freaking out is my past (childhood) where I knew something (always bad) was going to happen before it did.  I can't seem to let go or not listen to what I feel I know with a certainty.  Just want to crawl into a hole, isolate and pray it pass's fast.

 

As far as regrets, for me I think its more about feeling guilty for some of the shitty things I've done and how its affected other people who didn't deserve to be in my line of fire - cravings, fighting the desire to use.

 

My therapist is also going to consult with my M.D. today and see between the two of them what they would recommend.  As for now, I'm searching for a nice big boulder to crawl under until this pass's.

 

Jack