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| | | From: jewel (Original Message) | Sent: 5/29/2003 7:05 PM |
I'm not on any detox program, and haven't been for a long time. They don't work for me, and I am usually better off doing it on my own. Pretty clean, minus the alcohol every other weekend, and the occasional valium about once every two months. But I've got these CRAVINGS!!! If you would have stuck a syringe infront of me full of ambrosia a month ago, I would have turned it down..... But I know that's not been the case in the last week. I don't understand it. There is no extra stress going on in my life, no crisis. These cravings popped up out of nowhere!!! Sometimes they're so bad I force myself to go to the grocery store to buy a bottle of wine, instead of going downtown to score. I don't want to hang out with my friends anymore, because I worry that I'll get a really bad craving, and they'll notice something is wrong. I thought that maybe they'd just go away if I fought them long enough, but they're only getting worse. Any suggests on where these cravings might have come from, or how to curb them? jewel |
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Hi Jewel, I know what you mean about the cravings, fortunately I seldom crave getting high. I think sometimes it helps to do exactly what you are doing, talk about it. Recognize your feelings, they are something we have no control over, we do however have control over our actions and what we decide to do with these urges/cravings. Do you keep a journal/diary ? If not then maybe start one. I recently looked at some of mine from the first year I stopped using and went on methadone. I can hardly believe that I am the same person, my life is far from perfect but it is one hell of a lot better than it was 5 years ago. Another thing I would do and this may sound crazy but I would get a haircut. I am serious, for some reason it helped me to feel refreshed and clean. Get out the paper and see what movies are playing, reward your self for not going back and making the same mistakes we have all made in the past. I remember that terrible depression that would hit me whenever I had used up all my stuff and I was coming down and craving more. It was pure HELL for me and I never ever want to experience that again. I hope that maybe something I have said will be of some use to you.
Regards
Joe
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 Hi Jewl, I have seen my husband go through cravings like that and he used to substitute them for another substance like you are doing. But after he was clean for a while he started getting his old hobbies back. When he was strung out his whole life was consumed with coping drugs, not getting sickwho he had to steal from how he would get there who was pissed at him who was left to borrow from etc.. anyway life was a constant hustle and he lost himself to the chase. But when I asked him last night how he handeled the cravings he said he got to a point where he was straight and he had nothing to do with himself. He would wake up in the morning and had nothing. He had lost his job, his friends, his car, his family and when he was strung out he had no time for the things he used to enjoy. When he started getting his hobbies back and his friends and family he was too buisy making up for lost time to think about the cravings. He said to tell you to think about the things you enjoyed doing (before heroin) and start doing them again. Hope this helps. Good Luck  |
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| | | From: Marco | Sent: 6/2/2003 6:17 PM |
Hi - I can relate so much to these messages. I've been clean for about a month and a half and have terrible cravings. I can really understand what you said about your husband, toxic. I lost my job almost a year ago, my friends, pretty much everything (except thank god my family, which is the only reason I'm still alive). I wake up in the morning with just this long empty day in front of me. And nothing to do. Your suggestion of getting back into things that we used to do is a good one. Just right now I don't even feel like I have the energy for it. Right now, I'm just trying to get thru the days without using. Not easy, but it can be done. Marco |
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 Dear Jewel, I used to come on to the chat rooms reguraly now they have changed it Or I am having a dumn moment, I need help getting back there. [email protected], Colleen is my real name Thanks |
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| | | From: jewel | Sent: 6/5/2003 8:20 PM |
I know Gid, I shouldn't be drinking when I'm craving. I've cut back on the drinking, just because I started to get worried that I'd become an alcoholic. But I'm still craving!!!!! I can't tell my family or friends I'm craving, either, it would cause a family meeting or something equally drastic. I've been sleeping WAY too much, can't work, can't go to school, got some depression going on, and now these cravings on top of it. AND......the mother of my dead boyfriend is trying to get me to come to this group therapy she's been going to. She's very persistant, and doesn't understand me at all. Long ago and far away, I tried the group thing, and it doesn't work for me. I have pretty much sworn off therapy in general. I know it works for other people, but I'm the type that won't open up until I'm ready. I can't sit for an hour and talk about myself, let alone all my personal issues with life. I think I need a vacation. Somewhere with a lot of trees. I thought about packing up my tent and sleeping bag and a cooler full of food and taking off for a few days, in search of summer. I dunno about you guys, but in Ohio, it still feels like spring. So there's the weekly jewel update.... |
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Dear Jewel,
I am so hoping that things get
better for you soon. It is so hard to get out of bed everyday and struggle
to stay sober. Take it one day, one hour at a time. Hope that the
sunshine peeks through the clouds.
Sounds like you could use a quick
getaway. I try to do that, the only problem is the shit is still there
when you get back.
I will keep you in my heart, Love
Karen
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In a message dated 6/6/2003 2:39:01 AM Eastern Daylight Time, [email protected] writes:
I shouldn't be drinking when I'm craving. I've cut back on the drinking, just because I started to get worried that I'd become an alcoholic. But I'm still craving!!!!! I can't tell my family or friends I'm craving, either,
ANAWAKENER here.Something I found out the hard way.When I get alcohol into my body it's like a switch was turned on.I MUST HAVE DRUGS.After the last drink it takes two to three days to stop the craving.I can't control it.I can't have even one drink. That's me IHS:Bruce W...theGroup7
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